No, I did not watch the game last night. Who cares about baseball anyway? Considering that women are being forced to have abortions in China, new brides in India are being murdered by their in-laws for the dowry money, and J-Lo is finally, finally, pregnant, can we really even bother to call ourselves decent Christians if we get all wrapped up in such petty things as sports?
Besides, I hate crying. It gives me a headache.
Instead, the kids and I watched Bridge to Terebithia. I loved this book when I was a kid. Unfortunately, that was about 25 years ago, and my memory is a bit sketchy. So, we're all happily munching popcorn and enjoying how these two adolescents engage their imaginations to create a fantasy world, and then, the next thing you know, Leslie is dead.
My husband, working on the computer across the way, has a very sensitive wife-has-lost-it-emotionally warning system (or perhaps he just could hear my sniffles and sobs), and he came over to see if I was okay. He's not watching the movie; he has no idea that this girl has died. For all he knows, it's just more post-partum weepiness which has me crying, at times, over completely insignificant things. But he knows, without duly expressed concern and compassion, he runs the risk of a snowball effect wherein I cry also because nobody cares, and then I cry more because I'm crying over something stupid, and how could I expect anybody to understand that...it can get quite ugly around here for these (thankfully) brief episodes.
"Blast it. I forgot the girl dies. I'll be fine," I managed to croak out, wiping away my tears, and regretting we didn't just watch baseball instead. He expressed his concern, patted me on the head, and then went back to work.
Then Jenny started asking me, "Where did Wesley go?"
"Leslie died, honey."
"But where did Wesley go?"
"Heaven, honey, she's dead."
This kept up for a few minutes until she said, "Is she in the graveyard?"
"Yes, she's in the graveyard." This satisfied her, and finally, the topic could rest in peace.
After the movie, Fritz offered his opinion. "Why did they have her die? This is a kids' movie. People aren't supposed to die in kids' movies."
I nodded empathetically. "I agree. I think her death was completely superfluous." Everybody just stared at me. Instead of asking for a definition of superfluous, they all just pretended I didn't say anything at all. My words of comfort were wasted.
Off went the kids to bed, and then Bill had someone come over to work on a report, so I retreated to my TV-free bedroom. It was only later, as I was feeding the baby at her usual 11 pm oh-I'm-sorry-you-weren't-trying-to-sleep-or-anything awake time, that I remembered to check the score.
It's okay. It's time to move on. Baseball in October is obscene. Instead of watching the World Series, maybe I'll get some more kid-and-mom friendly movies.
Like Old Yeller.